This hit me profoundly this afternoon. I feel millennial understand this phrase, ‘ Nothing Lasts Forever.’ Nothing does, though I often live like I will have eternal options. The people I love will always be around. I can always pursue my goals one day in the distant future. The movie Dead Poets Society’s phrase ‘Carpe Diem,’ Seize the Day should be embraced more often than it has been.
I do not mean, don’t plan for things. You should plan and plan to be living well in to your 90s. What I mean to say is also plan for little things and other big things like kids. Have multiple plans, prioritize them and keep focused on those goals. Remind yourself and talk with your partner if you have one regularly about where you want to go and what you want to do in life.
Do you have a vice you are embarrassed about? Do you have goals you are afraid to speak out loud ? Are you in a relationship you like, but that may not be taking you where you want to go? Are you unsure of where you want to go?
Well, that is where I’m at today. I have a vice I’m ashamed to speak of and goals I will not mention for two reasons1. I’m embarrassed and 2. It could alter current relationships and my career.
So what do I do? Am I fulfilled in my life? No. So it must be time to move forward. I do not know how to do that, but I’m going to start writing down a plan and share it with someone. Living an unfulfilled life is not for me.
Do you face challenges like these in your life? Are you going to do anything about the challenges?
I know change is supposed to make us better and stronger, but for some people it breaks them. Which person am I ? So far change has forced me to grow, but at times it has taken a toll. Am I better for the change? Yes, I am. My next change will occur soon. It could be more than my career. It may encompass letting go of some people as well. Am I prepared ? No. Will I ever be prepared? No. Could I be better prepared than I am now? Definitely . The funny thing is that I have tried everything in my power to avoid the change and I am still be forced to change and grow. I hope it will be for the best.
This year had been going well. I had not drank in months and my workout regimen was on track. Then about a month ago I went out and drank with a client. I came home very drunk. So drunk I felt it the next day. After that incident I also did not want to workout. There was no rhyme or reason to it. I was no longer working out and I started drinking again. So for the past month I went in reverse and back tracked on all my gains.
What do I do now? Wallow in self pity or get back on my horse again. I have gotten back on my horse and stopped drinking and started working out again. Does it syck that I fell behind on my goals. Yes, but shit happens. All I can do is focus on today and restart.