This is something I deal with every week. Am I helping myself or hurting myself. Days I am depressed I am generally not doing what I need to do, to get where I want to be. Days I am happy I do what I need to do, to be where I need to be.
The saying from Nike is priceless,”Just Do It.” Easier said than done, but moving forward is better than staying still. Moving forward means things can become better. Doing nothing means things will stay the same. Either way, those are your choices. The world will change regardless.